Storms
Nicolas Chamillet
There's a crack in the silence when it rains like this
As if your voice still leaks through the static
I remember the headlights cutting through the darkness
And how your name still tastes traumatic
They said time would lessen it, diminish it
But the pain doesn't lessen, it just changes shape
I still see you in every reckless spark
On every road I'm afraid to travel
And I tried to bury you in better days
But you bloom in every damn mistake
Because every storm ends, that's what they say
But nobody tells you what survives the rain
I found the Sun, but it's not the same
When I kiss and whisper your name
Yes, the sky clears, but I still grieve
You were lightning, I was never warm
Now I'm learning that love doesn't come without thorns
Every calm begins within a storm
He has soft hands, doesn't drive too fast
And laughs as if the world hasn't ended
But every time he reaches out to me
There's a ghost in every word he doesn't say
I hate myself for the way I freeze
As if loving you were some kind of crime
You're a shadow in the passenger seat
Of every future I try to build
And I tried to bury you in better days
But you bloom in every damn mistake
Because every storm ends, that's what they say
But nobody tells you what survives the rain
I found the Sun, but it's not the same
When I kiss you and whisper your name
Yes, the sky clears, but I still grieve
You were lightning, I was never warm
Now I'm learning that love doesn't come without thorns
Every calm begins within a storm
Everything that dies remains alive somewhere
And I will always remember how much I cried
In the waiting room
With blood on my hands
So, Dylan, tell me
Can I love you? You wouldn't feel pain
Because it would hurt me to hurt you
The sky will always clear
Even if the storm is strong
But I feel, in my heart
That I will never get over
The fact of seeing you die