All This Love
Izadora Hoffmann
The rain outside mirrors the quiet in my head
Another night spent tracing lines in this empty bed
I replay the sound of your goodbye, a familiar, dull ache
A promise whispered softly, a heart it chose to break
I built these walls so high, brick by painful brick
Thinking safety lived there, but it just made me sick
All this love, I try to understand
Wanting to love you without fearing you
But the ghost of every past mistake
Holds my trembling, outstretched hand
I let the darkness claim the view
Wanting to love you without fearing you
Your scent still lingers faintly on that worn-out sweater
A cruel reminder of a happily ever after that never got better
We spoke of futures bright, of sunlit avenues
Now all I see are shadows, and what I stand to lose
I'm caught between the memory and the need to just let go
A silent, lonely battle only I seem to know
All this love, I try to understand
Wanting to love you without fearing you
But the ghost of every past mistake
Holds my trembling, outstretched hand
I let the darkness claim the view
Wanting to love you without fearing you
Maybe the fear isn't of losing you, not really at all
It's the fear of opening up, only to watch it fall
I keep the armor on, though it weighs a ton
Because being exposed means facing what's already done
All this love, I try to understand
Wanting to love you without fearing you
But the ghost of every past mistake
Holds my trembling, outstretched hand
I let the darkness claim the view
Wanting to love you without fearing you
Without fearing you
Just fading echoes now
In this empty room