IT HURTS TO KNOW
Gusttavo Losi
Staring at my phone for a minute or two
Hoping for a text or a sign from you
I laid it all out, gave you all my time
You acted like you never saw a single line
The room is pitch dark, coffee's turning cold
Replaying every story that you ever told
Where did I go wrong? What did I miss?
How did we end up in a mess like this?
You felt so real right at the start
Fixing my hair while you took my heart
It was all a front, just a staged control
And I was a fool giving you my soul
I'm not even mad, no
It's just that heavy chest feeling
When you see someone
For who they really are
It hurts to know
I was the only one who cared
It hurts to see
That you couldn't care less
I gave you my best
My black hoodie's sitting at your place
With the book I lent that you can't replace
Tossed in a corner on a dusty floor
Just like the love that I gave before
One day we planned where we'd build our home
Now I'm sitting here on my own
Was it really that easy to walk away
To ghost my world and have nothing to say?
I'm not gonna call, won't blow up your phone
Just trying to learn how to be alone
How did I give so much room inside
To someone who had so much to hide?
I'm not even mad, no
It's just that heavy chest feeling
When you see someone
For who they really are
It hurts to know
I was the only one who cared
It hurts to see
That you couldn't care less
I gave you my best
The worst part of it is feeling so blind
Ignoring every warning in the back of my mind
My friends told me to leave, said you were a trap
I bet on us and fell in your lap
I kept making excuses for every flaw
Defending the coldness in all that I saw
Said you were just quiet, just your style
But you didn't give a damn all the while
Now I'm in the dark, picking up the pieces
Cleaning up the mess as the noise decreases
Realizing too late I was just a game
While you were my world and my only aim
And I'm done asking you for answers!
When people care, they make time, not excuses!
You were a coward, left me bleeding on the floor
Instead of manning up to meet me at the door!
I just wanted you to have the nerve inside
To look me in the eye instead of where you hide
I'm not even mad, no
It's just that heavy chest feeling
When you see someone
For who they really are
It hurts to know
I was the only one who cared
It hurts to see
That you couldn't care less
I gave you my best
Maybe I had it coming
Guess I just couldn't see your red flags
Your red flags