I Don't Want to be a Girl
Fukase Vocaloid
Nee, onna no ko ni naritai is one of my favorite songs
But every time I hear it and I try to sing along
The words just don't feel right
Once I thought I'd cut off my long hair
It wasn't like I ever took good care of it
I just hoped that that would be enough
To lead me down the road of repairing this
Form I take was just a small mistake, right?
Snip and cut to switch it to the other side
Then the answer should make itself evident
So why do I still feel like I'm pretending?
Am I making all this up?
I don't want to be a girl!
But I keep seeing parts of me in somebody who does
So, am I wrong for thinking that I am the way I am?
I'm envious of somebody who wants the things I have
Men in dresses make me feel such joy
But then they smile, and I begin to cry
Can I trust you want to be a boy or
Am I just ignoring all the signs?
Envy of the way you cross the line
I want to cross it too, but I would loop back to one side
And nobody would ever come to know
I dared to venture past what I'm assigned
Ouroborus, bite my tongue
I wish I could be a girl
But I can't see myself in someone who I know is one
So, am I wrong for thinking that I am the way I am?
I'm envious of somebody who wants the things I have
Hating loving femininity
I can't confuse you more
Doubting I am what I want to be?
If I am ever sure
The answer's simple in my head
A man who likes to be more femme
But if that is just the way you hide
Then what am I really inside?
I don't want to be a girl!
But I keep seeing parts of me in somebody who might
So am I wrong for thinking that I am the way I am?
I'm envious of somebody who wants–
Who may not want the things I have!
(I don't want to be a girl)
I just want to be a guy who people think could be a girl
So being what I am does that make sense at all to you?
Society's dishonesty just makes me so confused!