Great Wide Nowhere
Ethel Cain
It's easier to spin in circles when you're four years old
When falling's not a problem cause you're not the one
Scrubbing the grass stains out of your clothes
It's harder when the world spins circles while you're standing still
22, crying on the bathroom floor, dizzy against my will
If I don't leave home, I'm scared I'll die here
But the great wide nowhere is just as terrifying
I could suffocate somewhere I know or somewhere I've never been
I'm just as scared of living as I am of dying
And, God, please make me feel better, 'cause I don't feel so well
I swear it didn't used to be this hard
My mama's gonna die and my daddy's gonna die
And the world's gonna catch fire
And I'll just be here watching it go
Sooner or later, it all goes
Should I be terrified or replace my heart with ice?
It won't matter either way ‘cause I'll still be caught just watching it go
Can I please come with you?
I just wanna go with you