Heart In A Hearse
Monjane
Know they gon' judge me for better or worse
This gift a bliss but it feels like a curse
Cause, I write my best when I'm down and I'm hurt
Put my heart in a hearse I die when writting a verse
I tell the truth like confessions in church
Blessed with the spirit but still I be repeating the hurt
Standing on trial for the trials I trial-and-errored to pass, ain't been on my best I can't even mask it
How many times I gotta fall just to fly?
How many times I gotta die just so I feel alive
How many tries I gotta try to finally reach to the sky and see eye to eye with heaven 'fore my body retires
Let the curtains fall, I show you the scars
Gave them my all, now I'm burried in bars
They want the light but I live in the dark
Still tryna heal a soul that they tore apart
Will I ever fly? Will I ever know? How much of myself do I gotta let go?
Before my body retires
They want the gospel, I'm just venting my sins
Wondering where the trauma ends and music begins
Alone in the cold I clearly hear the whispers and noise
Judge the path a nigga walk but wish to step in my shoes
They follow my moves and mimic my pose
That love and hate relationship they got for me is such a sickening thing
But fuck what they mean that's said to be mean
What I'm in and do in life the only one can judge is who set me up
The government too, so don't act a fool
Moving legal all the time 'cause time is something ain't nobody can own
I gotta get to where I'm going 'fore my body retires
Let the curtains fall, I show you the scars
Gave them my all, now I'm burried in bars
They want the light but I live in the dark
Still tryna heal a soul that they tore apart
Will I ever fly? Will I ever know? How much of myself do I gotta let go?
Before my body retires