I Don't Think I'll Ever Get Sober
Luke Lotus
I used to dance with danger like it was a game
Laughing at the sparks while feeding every flame
Didn't see the moment when the fire took control
Till it wrapped around my bones and settled in my soul
Now I'm standing in the ashes of the life I knew
Turning every broken chapter into something new
No more hiding from the world behind my window line
Watching life just slip away and pass me by (passing me by)
And I keep changing
These feelings, honestly
I'm not on the same schedule
That I was, I was, I was, I was
If the night keeps calling my name
I'll keep dancing inside the flames
Everybody says I should let it go
But chaos is the only home I know
So if you're asking me to start over
To wash away the highs and the lows
I'm sorry but I already know
I don't think I'll ever get sober for while
I don't think I'll ever get sober a while
(I don't think I'll ever get sober a while)
Now I'm learning what the silence in my heart requires
How to breathe again without the borrowed highs
Every step feels like I'm balancing a wire
Between the person that I was and who survives
Still there's something pulling me into the deep
Like a rhythm in my blood I couldn't keep
And the strange part of it all is knowing why
The battle lives somewhere inside my mind
And I keep changing
These feelings, honestly
I'm not on the same schedule
That I was, I was, I was, I was
If the night keeps calling my name
I'll keep dancing inside the flames
Everybody says I should let it go
But chaos is the only home I know
So if you're asking me to start over
To wash away the highs and the lows
I'm sorry but I already know
I don't think I'll ever get sober for while
I don't think I'll ever get sober for a while
(I don't think I'll ever get sober for a while)
Every scar becomes a map of where I've been
Every fall just proves I'm standing up again
I'm chasing light across the endless sky
Learning how to live without the lies
I'm not afraid to fall anymore
Not afraid of the dark I saw before
If I'm burning then at least I'm alive
Reaching for the stars tonight
(And the best part about it)
(Is that I'm the only one who can do something about it)
(I filled the well with some water, it's overflowing)
White turning to gold
Who knew it would be so bright without the blindfold
If the night keeps calling my name (ooh, woah)
I'll keep dancing inside the flames
Everybody says I should let it go (let it go)
But chaos is the only home I know
So if you're asking me to start over (over, yeah-yeah)
To wash away the highs and the lows
I'm sorry but I already know
I don't think I'll ever get sober for while
I don't think I'll ever get sober for a while, yeah-yeah
(I don't think I'll ever get sober for a while)
(I don't think I'll ever get sober for a while)
(I don't think I'll ever get sober for a while)
(I don't think I'll ever get sober for a while)