Don't Fuck With My Feelings
Luke Lotus
You said you were different, and I believed it
Said my heart was safe in your hands
You touched me like you knew what you were doing
Like you understood the weight of “I can't”
I let my guard down in small, stupid ways
Trusted the tone of your voice at night
I thought you saw me, really saw me
Not just something convenient in your life
I gave you the parts I hide from everyone
The softest truths, the ugliest fears
And you held them like they were temporary
Like they wouldn't matter in a year
If you were going to leave anyway
You could've just let me go
You didn't have to make me feel chosen
Just to disappear so slow
You didn't fuck with my feelings, you destroyed them
Turned my trust into something I regret
You didn't break me by accident
You knew exactly what you did and still left
You didn't fuck with my feelings, you played them
Like they were something you could use
And now I'm left cleaning up the mess
Of believing I was safe with you
You knew my heart was fragile
You saw the cracks, you stayed
And still you walked away like love
Was just another game
I replay every moment I ignored the signs
Every silence I explained away
Every time my gut screamed “run”
And I chose you anyway
You said the words that made me stay
You held me when I almost left
And that's the part that hurts the most
You knew me, and you still did this
I wasn't asking for forever
I wasn't asking for a vow
I was just asking you to be careful
With a heart that's bleeding now
You didn't got to promise me light
If all you had was dark
You didn't got to come so close
Just to tear me apart
You didn't fuck with my feelings, you destroyed them
Turned my trust into something I regret
You didn't break me by accident
You knew exactly what you did and still left
You didn't fuck with my feelings, you played them
Like they were something you could use
And now I'm left cleaning up the mess
Of believing I was safe with you
I'm not angry, I'm empty
And that's worse than pain
'Cause I don't even miss you
I miss who I was before your name
I hope one day you understand the damage
Not in guilt, but in truth
I hope someone trusts you the way I did
So you finally feel it too
I'm rebuilding everything you touched
Learning love isn't supposed to hurt like this
And the hardest part of letting go
Is accepting I didn't imagine it, I lived it
So this is me choosing myself at last
Not bitter, not broken, just awake
You didn't ruin love for me forever
You just taught me what I won't take
You didn't fuck with my feelings, you destroyed them
But I'm still standing, even if I'm scarred
You didn't take everything from me
You just showed me how strong I am
You didn't fuck with my feelings, you lost me
And that's the part you'll never fix
I loved you honestly, I loved you deeply
And I survived the way you did this
You lost someone who loved you real